*rubs hands together* Ok, Skinny Me’s emotional distress is over a guy. I swear the stupidity of guys is what makes our lifespan so short for some women! I don’t seem to suffer from this problem though. YAY me! lol Scott said that she was really open, blunt, and outgoing, but she must’ve changed or something because the nervous girl sleeping off wine on my couch isn’t very experienced with guys or the mind games that people play with each other.

Anyways, for Skinny Me it all began a month or so before her school-year ended. She described her little circle of friends which included two really close girl friends and a couple of guy friends, one of which is a friend and his brother from high school, to whom I’ve given the name Oblivious (the friend) and Awkward (thebro). Oblivious and Awkward are twins but ended up at the same college because their mom is on the board of directors. They share a small house off-campus, which is where they all congregate to hang out.

So, Skinny, Oblivious, Awkward, and Young’n (her other close friend and the youngest of the group) were watching a movie when Oblivious gets up and goes to bed. Young’n proceeds to pass out, which leads to a few jokes about her and some joking about them being alone. Awkward and Skinny end up laying on the couch together, watching the tv but not really watching it from what she said. They made out for a really long time before just laying there talking while he played with her hair. She blushed the whole time she was telling me this, so I’m guessing Skinny is still a virgin (Cheers to her!) The next day before she left, she caught him alone and they talked a bit; they came to a agreement that they both liked each other, but they couldn’t date because he has A LOT of stuff going on (*cough cough*- whatever) with his family and not supposed to be involved with anyone… weird if you ask me.

I interrupted with a quick “What the fucking hell?! He’s old enough to make his own decisions and take care of his own business!” then I shut up again. She went on to say how when she had seen him on campus a few days later because they all have a place where they meet up between classes and over the summer when they’re too broke to go anywhere else. Her friends were there too and he didn’t act any differently towards her. So, the next time she went to her friends house, it turned out to be just her, Oblivious, and Awkward sitting in the living room watching tv. And, he had tried to keep some contact between them through the entire time even though he was sitting on the other side of the couch and her friend was right in front of her.

Skinny almost started crying, but I just refilled her glass and told her to keep going. This is how I’ve percieved the whole crock of drama. He won’t really talk to her, he prefers her over Oblivious’ other friends (which is how oblivious has taken it), and he makes a lot of dirty when they end up in a room together, which she makes a stupid comment back and they laugh. She’s upset because he’s graduating before her. She doesn’t know if he’s coming back for the next level or if he’ll go out to work. If Oblivious knows, he sure isn’t saying anything-except Skinny did mention that Oblivious does make curiously specific jokes about her and Awkward.

I could’ve shook Skinny to death. Instead, I had downed my glass of wine and asked, “Why don’t you try taking that step and talking to him?”

She blushed further and went on about how she never knows how he’s going to react. He blows hot and cold, and will have days of joking around and days where he’ll get an attitude. Then, there are others when he’ll be cool- or drunk. Awkward has emotional problems if you ask me. He needs some help to balance HIM out and get rid of his male PMS.

I can’t shake the feeling that he may be using her to get what he wants. My head hurts from it all. This is why I gave up dating when I graduated college; it hurt too much on too many levels.

Skinny is all torn up over him, and I don’t really know what to say to her. I can’t say, “forget about his junk and find somebody” because it’s not that easy at all; I know all too well. She is totally stuck on him, but if he would clear up his junk (tell her straight up whether they have a chance or not) she said she would take it good or bad and deal with it.

“I need to forget him, for my sanity’s and grade’s sakes, but I just can’t. I can be distracted for a little while, but it creeps back like an addiction that I’m trying to get over.” -Skinny Me

I wrote this poem for her today while she stayed in Scott’s bed all day. I’ll post it after I get some sleep myself, if I can with all this swimming around in my head. Dammit!

Good bye personal funk, hello everybody else’s problems! I am a sponge soaking up your issues like spilled milk- tears included. I should’ve become a therapist!